Today someone asked me about this "passion craving" of mine. A good friend of mine broke it down perfectly "There's a difference between TELLING me something and SHOWING me something". I need passion because it SHOWS me that you care and how deep your emotions run for me, I'm addicted to that, show me all day, forget about telling me. I've had nice laid back types that have told me everything that I would want to hear, but if I don't feel it, it is pointless. I need to feel everything. You can really tell if I care about you if I am touchy feely with you, if I feel like your passionate, you're definitly getting touched by me because I just love the energy I feel from it.
There are some people in my life that I have known forever, and I cringe at the thought of them touching me and its because they lack that energy, the passion that I need so a touch from them feels cold and lifeless. I'm a moth to passion's fire and I dont mind it being the death of me.
In other news...this weekend, I learned that you can have a strong connection with someone and just leave it at that. Chemistry used to be EVERYTHING to me, maybe because I'm such an oddball that nobody really meshed well with me, so the few that did, it was a huge thing. Now I kind of realize that some connections are just meant to be enjoyed for whatever amount of time fate has alloted you, enjoy it, and then seek out the next connection and perhaps more will come from your next encounter..besides the fact that I will definitly miss that last "connection"...I kind of like learning how to enjoy the moment and take it for what it is, never really had to do it before.
I am still selfish and greedy though, I dont think that will ever change.
Time for bed
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